April 21 : Nice Tuesday

The day was an awesome one. Well reached studio early, 8 am. Waited for folks and later enjoyed the company of people in studio. Lil panneling and lot of talks followed. We pretended to work on sheets as the inspecting team of council of architecture did its work. Passed comments on nagging teachers. Time after lunch break was fun in studio. We enjoyed sitting idle and gossiping. It was fun to make humour of something notorious! Well probably we should not have. Interaction with council guys in lecture theatre was quite boring and we passed time doing random rubbishes including SMSing, small chatters, some random mockeries on paper and likes. Evening was spent sleeping in hostel and time after dinner was killed on phone, laptop and a stroll till Saras. Looking people giving birthday bumps to Sudhanshu was rather another sight. Having shared my 'NIT' life till now with Debz I now feel at ease. Having browsed a lot am still not able to sleep and enjoy imaging and day-dreaming a lot.

Little Enlightenment!

Everything is moving cool and hip these days. We all have enjoyed working on those small things in studio, it looks nice now. We people are talking a lot to each other and it includes meaningful and fun talks also. Looking back to these days we will never regret anything. We are learning a lot about things and people and now we are liking them for there goods and faults and they too are understanding us much better. Somehow we are now in much improved bonds and we have put in efforts to create these bonds, so these are very less likely to be temporary and we hope these to be everlasting. We are also learning to act more maturely and inter-mingle with a large number of people and enjoy all the times and all the people. One thing that I notice is with friends life is supreme when things are mutual. I have started believing in this mutual life thing and feel being a part of the enthusiasm, zeal it is. Sharing fun and problems alike is cool. Everything we do is a shared initiative and for a person like me who has had very less tendency of working in tandem with others, it is not like that I am not comfortable working with people but I think works done solo are better, it is an overhelming experience to work like a part of the system and be in the flow. Things have changed for sure but I have figured out it is more important to live the moment then to think about living it, mistake that me and most people in world do. Anyhow times are nice, people are enjoying so its all nice around here.

April 10 : Another Day Well Utilized

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Well it is 9:40 and I must be there in the extra class at 10. Of course, I will be late as I have decided this in my mind, despite the fact that I have done quite good work and am satisfied with it. Leave for the class at 10:15 with Abhinav and Himanshu and accompany them in the 10 minute punishment session with few others. Enjoy the lame excuses they give to get out of it. Through the class I prefer to stay silent and communicate only with teacher and a few not so close friends! Work a bit and just get hold of all that matters to me. After class I straight away hurry to the hostel and pass sometime. A nap post lunch and small chat session before annual day function are the only activities I am indulged in. Enjoy the bath and music. The annual day function is usual formal time guzzler, could be done away with but is actually harmless. Well atleast people around me and ofcourse me too were happy poking comments at those old non-chalant responsible people enlightening us with their 'read-from-the-page' speeches. May were enjoying the meal, they say it was better than usual! A stroll till GT and I realise am quite on track when it comes to my aim of maintaining a balanced BMI, proper fit of jeans tells me so. Back in room Mahendra is hardly the one who would talk much after his dose of the day (in his words it was just 2 litre, he knows better!) and other two guys are missing, my lappy and mobile (with calls and SMSs deemed sins, no SMS in last 56 hours and hardly 2-3 outgoings!) are my buddies as I organize my stuff, everything in place! Clothes done! Room done! Sheets no immediate action needed! Hard to believe but am totally organized and a lot of time is with me and have nothing to bother but kill time chatting, watching movies, browsing net and such things. The only thing on my mind is preserving this attitude and try to focus on a short-listed pleothra of things so that some output is visible soon.

Not in a state of deeming anything good or bad these days and loving it as atleast am not confused in any case!

Wider Angle

Just 48 min past the begining of the 4th day of the week and am 'busy' laughing and sharing with Debz the last day's acts. The week has proved to be awesome so far. It is nice to be in a dream world with just very balanced doses of reality and practicality.

People around me stand perplexed, thinking this guy is in some sort of tension though am not. I have been successful in whatever I wanted and am enjoying all the things coming my way. As soon as I stopped living in a self-crafted web of emotions and temporary self pacifying thoughts and those fucking illusions am again able to look how people are managing things, and so should I.

One aspect of happiness in my case is not being in confusion and knowing exactly what I wish and not at all judging my thoughts and actions, conscious or unconcious! Day dreaming helps a lot, probably that is the purest form of my imagination, one such thought is delivering an intense hard rock performance, ending with an m9 logo flickering on the projection screen with resonating beats. Am letting myself loose in a no holds barred world these days. Am very used to seeing everyone from the same lens and for some time in past was not doing that thing. And ya as I realised am no longer willing to stick to any of my words anymore, wish to act at will and in the flow of the moment.

"Why so serious?" sounds to be theme of the time and so is my philosophy. Let loose, laugh with a wide grin and stay aloof and very importantly don't care for anyone, however dear the person is to you. Me first should be the policy else you can not think of being happy and thereby can't make people happy.

Moreover the lovely summers are at their best charms with sun playing hide and seek with clouds with the azure sky in the backdrop and winds blowing to give an effect of coolness to people soaked in sweat. I enjoy the strolls around, solitude (freedom) is preferred as my mobile accompanies me everywhere, with all kinds of music stored in its small brain. Once again my blog comes to rescue and the monotony of daily routines is broken by the blogging communities am thronging very frequently these days. All the things around seem to be just limitless and am very clear at the back of my head, only passionate obsessions to bring out the perfect work are influencing me in these times. Black has turned into my favourite colour, since it contrasts and thereby highlights the brightness everywhere.

Once again am the controller of the things that happen to me. I am the one who can change anything for good and am not the one who needs anyone around, though there presence is never regretted. One would always be welcome to this charming and magnetic persona but in these times expecting him to act against his fancies would be real mistake.

Vacations approaching quite hurriedly and am keenly waiting them though I know will miss this 'once again new found love' for this place and people as soon as I reach Delhi. Three weeks before that would be roller coaster ride as we all stand short of time with submissions, study, preparations for inspection due soon, managing the messes we have built up all around and staying in hold of things.

Though I am not short of words and thoughts but would still like to close this post as I got suggestions that long posts might bore my lovely readers, but will post back very soon, difficult to contain my excitement!