Sunday, June 22, 2008

Cricket, Brawl, Outing, Eyegrabbers...

Its 4:15 in the evening, I wake up after a 2 hour long nap in the noon. A notebook with some CSS code scribbled on it lies in front of me with a pen lying uncapped on it! I move to grab it, expecting to modify it a but, only to find Aman enter my house. We sit in the room sharing some talks HTML, analytics, adsense, hosting and all that crap. 15 minutes past it is Shrey joining us, with Divya Prakash following soon! Itsy-bitsy talks on vague issues like tracking mobiles, quantum physics, crime investigations and all that go on till 5:30, when we leave to play cricket in the field near my house. Teams are decided judging the "worth and reliability" of players! Field is set, umpire takes position. Five in a team and six overs to be bowled, everyone expecting his share of bowling. After two overs it is back to square one with a self-proclaimed bowler grabbing the ball to bowl his second spell! We still waiting for our turns with jaws-dropped! Another over and the ball still is out of our reach as the team must confine opponents in a defensible score. Well last over is gifted to one of the stragglers! And the other is convinced with a lollipop "first to bat" offer! First inning ends with a score of 44 in 6 overs, as the well experienced all-rounders toiled to keep the scores low! Innings two begins with a two defensive players on pitch! Ball 5 over one, for teams' sake a struggling batsman is declared "injured" and Sehwag of team walks down to the pitch and starts to script a "match-winning" performance! Wickets keep on falling and runs come in singles! Its last over and once again batting is "gifted" to "weak-links" of the team! Making the game a mockery, they expect a player to hit 19 off last 3 balls! Anyways result was expected! And off-course the poor soul, who was not allowed to ball as well as was declared injured was me only! Unable to control myself and not withstanding this stupid kind of dominance and bias, I called quit! The acts of some guys to control the whole team like puppets occurred to me real cheap. Uttering anger to myself and defending my decision I walk down the street to my home. Somehow I try to divert myself by thinking of an outing, but still anger and probably some jealousy is there! I reach my home and ask my sister to leave for an evening out, Bangla Sahib, District Centre (DC) or Cannaught Place (CP) come the suggestions. We decide to leave for DC, to check out some stuff in a book store and have some refreshments. I take a bath still not able to forget the cricket incident, looking the mirror I enquire myself, "What the hell do you think of yourself? You shit looking, lanky figure expect someone to give you ball and bat as a mercy. If you can not fight for your rights, why the hell you expect others to care for you? Better perform and fight or stay out of the field you are not fit into! But I did protest though it went unnoticed!" Soon we leave, firstly getting some money out of the ATM and then we take a ride to DC. At DC we straight go into the bookshop called "Wordsmith" and start shuffling from one to another books! That's a nice title lets check it out! Oh great cover. Yeah am an expert reader! Some titles, like "Why Men Like Bitches!", "A Girl's Guide To Kissing A Frog.", "Roads To Mussoorie.", were pretty interesting and caught attention. We selected 4 books and left the place! By now it is 8:45 and the place is bathed in lights! We decide to walk around the commercial centre and enjoy a little. Walking around dimly lit high-rises, notorious as "suicide point of west Delhi", checking out those neon lights of billboards and beautifully clad girls was a nice experience, though to my dismay most were with their boyfriends or family members! We wish not to leave but have to reach home soon! So we take our ride back and am back to my intovert self, talking to myself and thinking that "I am the in charge, everything is in my control" putting an end to week long conflicts with my own self that if am on the right track! Thanks my friends for pushing me back to those real life feelings of jealousy, angst, tension, competition, belief and the most important "Believe in yourself". I love you all! Thanks for such a nice evening, some time is now reserved for that Criminal Psychology novel I got!

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3 comments:

Serendipity said...

Hmm..well written! your inner self flourishing mostly all over the post!!
Oh your expert tiltles were a little bit shocking..lolz...but yeah they were eye catchers.. so which 4 did you pick up?
N negotiating yourself... a strict no to that..never... u r capable of doing everything if u wish to so so@!.. :)
it was happy reading with your post..hope d same 4 u with your criminal psychology novel..!

Manik said...

Titles I specially create for catching attention, this is what ma English teacher taught me (madam you rock!)

Actually didn't pick anyone!

One should criticize himself also! Maybe it will give easy way out!

And ya criminal psychology will be mast, but abhi Ruskin Bond's Roads To Mussoorie is keeping me busy!

Manik said...

@ Piyush
Sorry deleted it in a hurry but here it is retrieved from mail!

Piyush : Well Written...
You brought your such thoughts in a good manner,that is a good thing...
I would just say that nobody in life is a straggler!This thinking is only in the mind of people.
Everybody has to face feelings of angst, tension, competition sometimes in life.We should face it(be extrovert)and carry on with life.
Also,I would thank you fulfilling my long time request of writing something in negativity(though little bit).


My reply - Dude this was the best comment I ever found, I know these feelings occur to every1 and negativity is a part of life! I try to undermine it (though not to that extent as you might think ). But just hate to share negative things, probably sharing makes it more worse! Negative is a lot in world so share positive and atleast give it a mask of positive, so atleast it is presentable! Anyways, I have improved a lot as far as extrovertism is considered! These days I speak it in the face and face the repercussions very well!

Chal chad, story getting longer than blog itself! Hope I can be positive! Actually green! Blues turned into greens help you! A star life is probably negative hidden under positive!

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